Life Is Unpredictable - or Is It?

 There are times in our lives when we come to realizations about ourselves and our abilities.  This has become one of those times for me.

I have realized that I am stuck in the same rut that I posted about all the way back in 2019.  I have proclaimed from all heights that I would change...but I haven't...I haven't budged on any of it.  I have realized that I don't know how to do the things I want to do or become the person I want to be.

Life has been so uncontrollable for the last 2 years.  And from my perspective, it doesn't look as if it will be controllable for me at anytime in the near future.  The changes just keep coming...some are foreseen, some are not.

I struggle with how to gain the ability to handle all that life is throwing at me.

I continue to search for the thing(s) that will make me feel as though I am me - crafting, yoga, meditation, art, herbs, astrology, ritual.  I don't know if I just am unable to get a grip on my shit or if I have the kind of ADHD that hinders my ability to succeed at any thing.

So, here's to new ways of figuring out what I need and where I'm going and, ultimately, who I am.  This will be a journey of discovery and hopefully of new, positive, chapters in my life.